Wednesday, June 6, 2018

The Birth of Akram MS

Akram bin Muhammad Sofwan

is the name of our baby. He was born on the 21st of May and 5th of Ramadhan, at 2.24 a.m. at Hospital Sultan Ismail, Johor. Alhamdulillah, all is well.

The experience of giving birth is a remarkable one. As I reread my journal and the previous whatsapp on the day of the delivery, flashback of the night came through my mind. Can't believe that I had given birth. Can't believe that we have made it. Sometimes as I look at Akram, I can't believe that my husband and I already have a son! It hasn't been a year since we're married, but almost.

Nonetheless, alhamdulillah the labour process was smooth despite the super painful pain. Haha. The super painful part was the contraction, right before the push. The push part was not painful, but rather, it was super tiring. We checked in at the hospital at 11 p.m, I was sent to labour room at 12 a.m and the baby's out at 2.24 a.m. I think maybe the nurses helped me to give birth sooner because I was crying too loudly during the contraction haha. Glad I prepared myself to study the relaxation and breathing technique to handle pain, if not, it could be much worse.

The experience of confinement is also a remarkable one, though I''m still in the confinement period. I thought my body would recover quickly after birth, like "I'm finally getting my body back" feeling after pregnancy, but nooo, I felt more pain after giving birth. My body was very weak during the first week. I couldn't even sleep on my side because my shoulder and my arm would hurt. And I'm also feeling pain some more parts of the body like the labour wound, contraction and the breastfeeding pain. No wonder mothers are so great. Especially mothers of many children (my mom) because they experienced this repeatedly. Wuwu.

Although the pain was there, I can be happy now because Akram is well. My husband, parents and sisters are with me during this confinement period too so I'm very thankful to them. Many things can be done and I'm recovering well because they are here. Allah is making things easy for me. Alhamdulillah.

Anyway, today is Akram's 17th day (2 weeks, 3 days) and his development so far:
  • He can smile when his name is being called (only happens when he's actively awake)
  • He can make sounds other than crying. A short sound, like a sigh. But it wasn't frequent.
  • He still don't have sleeping pattern. His sleeping duration varies around 1-4 hours.
  • He drinks every 1, 2 or 4 hours, but mostly, every 2 hours.
  • He farted (or maybe pooped) loudly, so easy to detect XD.

Throughout pregnancy, I read surah Luqman and Maryam a lot. I read other surahs as well, but I think the two surahs moved me the most.

Surah Luqman tells about parenting and role of a child towards his parents. It was mentioned there that a mom is very weak during pregnancy and I could relate to the ayat so much. There were many times where I felt my body couldn't be as active and energetic as before. I missed several classes and events due to headache, body got easily tired and I easily cry too. The thought of having a baby inside me kept me rational and positive, other than the supports and love given by my family and friends.

Meanwhile, surah Maryam tells the experience of Maryam giving birth to Prophet Isa (Jesus). Labour was a very difficult process that even Maryam said (while enduring the pain) that maybe death is better for her. It was after that that Jibril came and helped her going the process of labour. While I was in labour, I was reminded of surah Maryam a lot. At that moment, it really felt like only Allah can help me. And the only thing that kept me positive is remembering that Allah is with me. He made us go through this, so it's possible to get through this. I hope I'd be that tawakkal towards Allah not only during labour, but throughout my whole life as well. Huhu.


Parenthood is just beginning. Life is still going on after this. I still need to complete my masters. Then, will start job hunting. Hopefully things will be well, insyaAllah :)

Ramadhan is ending soon. May Allah accept our deeds and guide us towards being a better mu'min soleh and muslih. 

Daz all. Feels good to be blogging again.

Saturday, May 26, 2018

For the guy right behind me


If I had known that I would marry you, I wouldn't have to be so bitter towards you.

If I had known that I would marry you, I wouldn't have to avoid you so bad.

If I had known that I would marry you, I wouldn't have to be in denial with my feelings.

If I had known that I would marry you, I wouldn't have to keep all the bitterness inside.

If I had known that I would marry you, I would've kept all our memories.

If I had known that I would marry you, I would've been a better friend for you.

What's the beauty of life without all those mysteries?

After all that we've been through, I'm so glad that we've found each other again.

And we're finally married.

You were right behind me.
Now I can find you right next to me.

For being my best friend,
For being a loving husband,
Thank you, Sofwan :)

I love you.

P/s: Sorry for the cheesy post. Just a random thought while I was burping our baby, Along. Am appreciating him more and more because he is taking care of me a lot during this confinement period. Am seeing more and more good sides of him every day. Alhamdulillah. Thank you, Allah.

May Allah protect and bless this love.

Friday, April 27, 2018

My Wedding

Date: 22 July 2017
Day: Saturday
Solemnization: 9.00 a.m
Bride and groom entrance: 12.30 p.m
Venue: Dewan Serbaguna SMK Bandar Baru Uda

Salamz. Let's continue the story.

That morning, I woke up feeling fresh and.... not nervous. Really. I even did the makeup for my nieces before doing my own makeup. While I was doing one of my niece's makeup, suddenly Piah said that we need to get to the hall a.s.a.p because the imam/tok kadi was in a hurry. It was almost 8 a.m and I was not ready yet! My makeup was almost done, so I finished it quickly, put on my tudung quickly and luckily, my friends (bridesmaid) arrived early too. So they helped me doing the rest of the touch up. Then, off we went to the hall.

Getting readyyy
The fruits from the fruit basket fell XD
The bride and bridesmaids.

We reached the hall at around 8.30 a.m. And alhamdulillah, right at 9.00 a.m, the groom and the family arrived. That was the time I started to feel nervous. I'm really getting married! to Sofwan! He took his seat in front of the imam. After the brief khutbah by imam, abah took charge for the solemnization. Abah said the lafaz, Sofwan answered, and after being verified by the witnesses, we're officially married :) Alhamdulillah.

During the solemnization. Abah looked sooo serious XD
The ring ceremony. Look at my awkward hand pose. Should've posed better.
Us with our parents. Wearing yellow were Sofwan's, pink were mine.

After the solemnization, we took family photo, and other photos, then greeted our relatives and friends who were already there. So happy that many came early to witness the solemnization. After that, Solehah the floor manager being an efficient one, told us to go back home quickly for the next session: the wedding parade (?). So we went back home to get ready, together with the best man (Arief), maid of honour (Hamizah) and photographer (Khai). Aaand went back to the hall for the grand entrance XD

Busy adjust apa tu..?
Pengantin with the pengapits

The grand entrance

Makan beradab. Ahmad was reciting the doa (the blurry figure at the back)


 Then, the cake slicing ceremony

Welp! SOS. Need help from the baker to slice it XD
Suap-suap 2.0

After all those were done, we proceeded to entertaining the guests. Alhamdulillah I was sooo happy that many can come. My relatives, naqibah, former naqibah, usrahmates, usrahmates, school friends, asasi friends, UTM friends, ikhwah akhawat, my students, seniors, juniors, and even Sofwan's friends, colleagues and boss came.

I really appreciate them for coming. Be it near or from afar, they still spent their time to fulfill the invitiation. Now I know the feeling of pengantin who are happy to see their guests, especially close friends and relatives. haha. So gotta take wedding invitations seriously!

Then, we took more and more photos together.

Pengantin with groom's men and bridesmaids :)
With the bridesmaids a.k.a Beliebers. Masa ni Liyana dah balik. Wuu.
Nadiyah couldn't come but she was also wearing this dress at her event XD

with batchmates
More batchmates
With UTM Teslians Girlzz +1
With my naqibah. Her son was hiding at the back XD. Mubasyirr, mubassyirr..
My adik usrah <3
My students! Omg. Jauh derang datang.
Another group of students from another class. Sis so touched. sobs.
Sofwan's robotic students from STF with the teachers.
Roomies from Asasi; Emme & Qama <3

Actually there were many more pictures but I think that's enough for now. Haha. Nevertheless, I am very thankful that the wedding went smoothly. Very thankful towards my parents, siblings, uncles, aunties and cousins for helping a lot. Oh, my parents and siblings did not only used their energy, but they also contributed financially (monyet tutup muka). Alhamdulillah, thank you to them.

Alhamdulillah, I'm now married to Sofwan, my close friend from school. We're now husband and wife :)

Towards more happiness, adventure and milestones with you
and although I'm married, I'll always be their little girl. Thank you for everything, abamama <3

Alright. That's all for my sharing. May Allah bless this family, and us all.


Wedding credits: - 
Photographer: @khairullahz (ig)
Bridal (Pelamin, hall setup & baju): @izanyacobbridal (ig)
Catering: alamak lupa. sebab mama yang handle XD
Telur Pindang: Telur Pindang Johor (fb)
Alas Meja & Kerusi: Masjid Jamek BBU
Doorgift: Beli dekat Cowboy Kulai, Nenek sponsor kerepek.
Bridesmaids: Beliebers
Sponsors: My cool siblings, parents, husband and myself