Monday, December 31, 2012

Journey in TESL III : Semester 1 is ending


Salam and hi :)

Alhamdulillah, all classes for semester 1 has ended, all presentations are done, drama has been performed, all assignment has been submitted, and now we're 'enjoying' our study week. Exam is going to start soon.

The final exam schedule.
oh, final exam for Semester 1 ye.

My netbook crashed last week. Thank God it crashed last week (in the study week period) not during the critical time of finishing all assignments at the eleventh hour. *BIG sigh of relief.

and, alhamdulillah, Abah has helped fixing my netbook. Other hard disks aren't affected but the main local disk was affected. so, all files kept there are gone. and I'm glad I kept my notes and academic files on the other hard disk. *another BIG sigh of relief.

most lagha things in this netbook were cleared up during the fixing process. hoho. that's a good thing of having your netbook crashed. made you ponder of the 'content', especially when you're going to re-download things you've lost (esp. songs and videos)

the operation of saving my netbook.
"my preciousss."

it's almost new year. (esok kottt)
maybe Allah wants me to start anew with new content of this netbook. wuwu~

Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal. Astaghfirullah 'ala kulli zanbin.

Aaaaanyway, since it's the examination season now, let's all do our best and pray for each other.
for Muslims, we might as well follow the following tips ;)
sitting for exam the muslim way! Malay version.

Last but not least, all the best to everyone! in everything!
and, happy new year! :))

brace yourselves, new challenges and adventures are ahead.

that's all. じゃね!

dah dah gi study sana.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

In the midst of hardship

^ exaggerating title.

credits: Tumblr
Things will get better, when all work is done.
It will all get better in time,
as long as we do our best.


credits: Tumblr

enjoy all the assignments while we can!


Rabbuna yusahhil.

P/S: Random post. Next week is the final week before the study week. Waaa~
P/S/S: Seriously, title tu exaggerate banget. esaimen je pun. huahua. ok. Title tu sebenarnya tajuk sajak dalam silibus literature form 4-5 yg baru.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Journey in TESL II : Japanese Visits & Debate

Assalamualaikum wbt and hi :)

Alhamdulillah, last week, two Japanese High Schools has visited UTM and last weekend, there was NIEW Great Gender Debate. I wasn't the participant of the debate, just one of the committee members. Everything went good kot. Although things were a bit hectic but I gained a lot of experiences.

3/12/2012 : Taisei High School visits UTM
My friends and I volunteered to be the facilitators for this programme. The programme didn't take a long time, just from about 8.30am to 12.00pm. 4 classes from the high school participated in this visit. Oh, by the way, they are from Osaka, so they talk Japanese very fast with the dialect. Each facilitator will have three students to 'guide'. They were talkative. Thus, imagine how we communicate. Yes, we communicate with a lil bit of English (very little English), a bit broken Japanese and a lot of body languages. wuwu. We played batu seremban and the Japanese students enjoyed trying our traditional clothes.

The three students on chairs are the students I 'guide'. Yuuya, Hentaro and Shoichiro. 17 years old.
Behind them was their friend whom I don't know his name.
In front of them was either their senior or classmate. But I think it's their senior.
Behind me was Sarah, my classmate.

and, this is what they gave me. The golden coin was from Hentaro and the silver coin was from Shoichiro
The thing that was written on the fan is "Oi oi, warau nayo" or in malay, "Oi oi, senyum ler"
The thing with the red ball is named Kentama. A Japanese traditional game.
I gave them, badges of Upin & Ipin and a malay girl.

5/12/2012: Meisei High School visits UTM
A day before the visit, I practised and study Japanese a lot so that it'll be easier to communicate with the students. (the experience before had taught me a lesson. huhu). Oh, for this visit, we didn't volunteer but my Japanese Language sensei assigned my whole class to 'handle' this visit. We have to perform and have an interaction session with the students. Marks will be given. For this visit, only one class came, so we just have one student each. Thus, it's easier to communicate (thank God I studied Japanese the day before). They are from Miyagi.

Upper right: Kaito, Masaki, Kouhei
Alhamdulillah the interaction session went smoothly. My 'friend' is Kaito, 16 years old. Masaki is Teno's friend and Kouhei is Intan's friend. They're both 17 years old. They are all classmates, and they're taking Computer Science.
What really surprised me was, they reaaaaaallly love cats! There are a lot of cats in UTM, yes. Whenever they see cats, they'll be like, "waa, neko-chan!" with excited expression. Kaito was especially excited. Then I remembered that Sensei once said, Japanese people really love cats. It's proven. Oh, and they are also amazed to see the big UTM Mosque.
I gave Kaito a UTM notebook and a postcard. When I gave him that, he opened his bag and stared what's inside, thinking of what should be given to me. koh koh. bagus betul la. orang tak mintak pun. he gave me this:

The raisin biscuits and a chocolate cookie were what he took out from his bag. Insya-Allah halal.
The orange thingy is a light stick. Of course, the light has gone out.
The thing that was hung on the plastic bamboo tree is a symbolic of the Star Festival.
Kaito also gave me the extra origami paper and the calligraphy pen. Those were prepared by the school.

After having lunch together and walked around the centre of UTM for a while, we bid our goodbyes.

All of us, in front of DSI.
Meisei High School Students, TESL students, a few post-graduate students and 'sensei's.
I had a great day with them.
What I like about them is that they are very polite and respectful towards others (despite of their 'boyish' behaviour). Gotta educate the future generations like that.

6-9/12/2012 : NIEW Great Gender Debate 2012
The event was held in UTM this year. I joined the committee for 'Sekreteriat & Pertandingan' part. My job was simple: be the time keeper and watch the debate. It was British Parliamentary style, so the debate was longer than usual. Sometimes I got sleepy so I brought along my laptop and earphone. uhuk. During the whole event, I stayed in Kolej Tun Dr. Ismail (KTDI) in the Palapes' block, MA6. The block has no lift so imagine walking up to the 5th floor every day. but, walking is good.

Upper left: The debate room which me and my other committe friend has to take care of
Upper right: Jehan and I :)
Lower  left: DSI, preparing for English final round. Lower right: Extra goodie bags!
Sorry I didn't take any pictures of any university's team. Plus, if I were to take photos during the debate session, the phone's camera sound will be too loud. I will just embarrassed myself by doing that.
During the debate, I met a lot of new friends, especially among the committee members. Also got to know a few people from UTeM, USM and UMS. Alhamdulillah for everything.
Oh, I missed 6 classes including co-q T_T *srott srott.

By the way, the results for the debate are:
BM: (1) UMP. (2) UIA. (3) UKM b. (4) UKM a.
BI: (1) UiTM a. (2) UIA a. (3) UM a. (4) UiTM b.

Congratulations to all the winning teams!

Next Things:
- Presentations
- Drama
- Public Speaking
- Assignments
- Tests
- Study week
- Final Exam! (start: 3 January)

Let's do the best. Only another week before the study week comes. Time flew so faaast.
Rabbuna yusahhil.

That's all.
Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal.
Wassalam :)

Monday, November 26, 2012


If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise; 
If you can dream---and not make dreams your master;
If you can think---and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same:.
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools; 
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings,
And never breathe a word about your loss:
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!" 
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings---nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much:
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And---which is more---you'll be a Man, my son! 

A poem by Rudyard Kipling.
A wise advice.

Whatever you do, whatever happens, be wise :)

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Journey in TESL I

Salam and hello everyone :)

During my foundation year, I've posted about my journey in pre-TESL. Now I'm taking degree in TESL, so, I think it's good if I share my journey here too (although this journey has started since 2 months ago and this semester almost come to an end. ;p). Let's get started!

As I've mentioned before, right now, I'm taking Bachelor of Science with Education (TESL) in UTM Skudai, Johor. Uuu, I am an undergraduate student seyyh. Pre-service teacher seyyhh..

Insya-Allah, we'll have 6 semesters (4 years) in here. For this semester, the subjects we study are Fundamentals of Grammar, Introduction to Literature, Japanese Language I, Educational Philosophy, Introduction to Teaching Profession, Teaching & Learning Technology, Computer System and Multimedia and Islamic & Asian Civilisation (TITAS). As for the co-curriculum, I'm taking First Aid I.

In these 2 almost 3 months, I've gone through a lot of programmes and things.

21-23/9/2012 : FYE (First-Year Experience)
it's our faculty orientation. Faculty of Education's.
We had it at Teluk Gorek, Mersing. Very nice place :)

Upper right: '12 TESLian girls.
Lower left: My team-mates with the facilitators. Right: Our team's flag. We're The Cat.

Mid-October : Festival Konvokesyen UTM (FESKO '12)
A festival held in conjunction with the convocation. Lepak at First Aid's booth for a session. Joined Aqsa Syarif's flashmob.

This was another I enjoyed apart from the sales.
It was my first time seeing them closely. 

Past & Present : Having nice stay in Kolej Perdana
Where we study and do the assignments and also, live.

The view from the balcony in our wing in a foggy morning. Subhanallah.
Pigeons liked to chill out at my room's window.

10-18/11/2012 : Midsem Break
early break, my birthday
end of break, went out with Hamizah & Athirah Kahar :)

22/11/2012 : TESL Night 2012
Organized by 2nd year students, celebrating final year students.
Held at Grand Paragon Hotel, JB.
The food was superb! Alhamdulillah. Worth the money, I guess.

Today, 24/11/2012 - Malakoff
Eco run. It has lots of sports competition. Cycling, Marathon, Sukaneka, etc.
Was in the UTM Health Centre's booth with friends (since we're taking First Aid). Did some basic medical check-up on people and ourselves. Also played congkak for fun. Went back to college with ambulance.

You can tell how excited we were riding the ambulance. It is a rare opportunity.
(maybe should be grateful that it's a rare opportunity for me)
Always present : Study
Assignments can't be separated from us. Study is our fight. Some subjects are challenging as they require deep understanding and a lot of reading. Awowowo. But I shall not give up as this is the choice I've made in the past. ずっと いきて!ان الله معنا

Coming soon:
- Japanese students visit to UTM
- NIEW Gender Debate (I was a part of the committee)
- assignment, presentations, public speaking.

It feels like time flew so fast. The study week is just a month away! waaa~
الحمد لله على كل حال. May Allah bless this journey.

Wassalam :)

Friday, November 16, 2012

Usia dah berhijrah.

Salam hijrah 1434! :)

Alhamdulillah, pada 11 November yang lalu, usiaku telah berhijrah daripada angka 18 ke angka 19. Alhamdulillah, seperti tahun-tahun sebelumnya, menjelang usia baru, ramai sahabat handai serta kaum keluarga telah memberikan doa yang cukup bermakna untuk ku. Terima kasih semua :)
Semoga segala doa itu termakbul untuk kamu semua. Amin!

Sehari sebelum hari lahir saya, 10 November, roommate saya, Effa kehilangan ayahnya. Allah lebih menyayangi ayahnya. Semoga Effa dan keluarga tabah dan kuat menghadapi dugaan ini. Allah pilih mereka untuk ujian ini. Allah tau mereka kuat. Allah sayang mereka.

Semakin usia saya meningkat, semakin banyak saya dengar berita kematian. Itu tandanya Allah dah bagi banyak peringatan untuk saya. Perkara ini juga membuatkan saya berfikir, bagaimana keadaan saya nanti? Bagaimanakah kesudahan saya? Jika berakhir sekarang, puaskah saya dengan keadaan diri sekarang?

Tidak. Semestinya tidak. Kerana itu saya sedar akan keperluan untuk berhijrah.
Berhijrah ke arah yang lebih baik.

*Ouhh,, terangnya.. Mabushi.!!*

Tapi itulah kan, setiap tahun pasang azam untuk berhijrah. Tapi buatnya entah ye entah tak. Macam boleh marah diri sendiri,

"Kau ni betul ke nak berhijrah? Kalau betul, dah banyak mana kau berubah sejak bulan lepas? Ok la, bagi chance jangka masa panjang sikit. Banyak mana kau berubah sejak tahun lepas?"

Banyak ke? Atau, ada ke pun?

hm. hm. *serba tak kena nak sambung tulis*
*sambung jelah*

Berhijrah ni susah. Diri sendiri perlukan tekad dan azam yang teguh, kuatkan diri untuk istiqamah, mujahadah.

Kadang-kadang rasa kagum tambah takjub dan diadun dengan serbuk 'respek' pada golongan sahabat Nabi s.a.w., yang mampu berhijrah secara total. Sikit pun tak nak kembali pada jahiliyyah. Sanggup buang kesenangan, sanggup keluar dari zon selesa masing-masing. Huwaaa hebat..

Kita kita? (Gaya abe Raja Shamri. koh koh)

Aku sendiri?

Usia dah berhijrah, berhijrah ke era 'dah besar' dan matang (sepatutnya). Dah 19 tahun.
Orang dulu-dulu, 19 tahun dah bekerja. Zaman kegemilangan Islam dulu, orang umur 19 tahun dah jadi penyelidik, guru, hafiz/hafizah, hebat-hebatlah.
Aku belum sampai tahap itu. Tapi aku perlu sampai ke tahap itu.

Maka, hijrah itu perlu.
Hijrah gaya hidup.
Hijrah peribadi.

Kamu tak boleh memulakan bab baru dalam hidupmu jika kamu selalu menjenguk bab sebelum itu.
Lepaskan silammu, dan majulah ke hadapan.

Semoga Allah s.w.t. memberikan kita kekuatan untuk mencontohi para sahabat Rasulullah s.a.w, yang berhijrah ke dalam Islam secara total. Aamiin.

"Siapa kata kita tidak boleh?
Kita ada Allah Maha Kuasa,
Kita punya kuasa tenaga,
doa sebagai senjata,
Umat Islam sentiasa boleh."

- Menuju Wawasan, dinyanyikan semula oleh Unique

Jom berhijrah!

Marilah kita terus berdoa untuk saudara-saudara kita di Gaza, Palestin, Syria dan di seluruh dunia :'|


P/S: Macam biasa, post mesti panjang habis selepas dah lama tak update. apatah lagi kalau in malay. hoho~

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Sort things out


Have you ever felt that you were thinking too much, or thinking of so many things at a time, and you're confused of which one to focus on first?

I have.

Now that's when we reaaally have to remain calm, and calmly, sort things out.
Insya-Allah, after you organize your thoughts, it'll be easier to focus on the main thing.
You'll know which to focus first. You'll know your priority.
Try to get rid of lagha things.

Sorting things out. Photo source.

Remain calm. Be cool. Be organized.

Semoga kita semua dapat mengenal pasti keutamaan masing-masing, dan mengabaikan tarikan-tarikan lain yang sia-sia. Benda kecil, biarkan kecil. Fokus pada yang utama. Tekadkan azam.

Allah kan ada.


Astaghfirullah al-adzim.
Walhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Making decision

Ehem. Bismillah.

Life left us with so much decision to make.
From the simplest of choosing the meal to eat,
to the biggest decision: to marry or not, to live or to die, to hell or to heaven.

Sometimes, the decision we choose to take will be different from others.
That's when we will have to have a strong will to take the decision.

Because you know,
We don't always have the same preferences.
People are different.
And the difference is what makes you, you.

Be brave to be different.
Be brave to take 'the road less travelled by'.


photo source: here.  

Background story behind the idea to write this kind of thing;

I decided to join First Aid as my co-curriculum activity, although in my heart, I reaaally wanted to join Scouts (or others yang lasak-lasak skit).
The reason is just because most of my classmates chose to join it.
On the first day of the class, we got our first lesson. The introduction to First Aid.
The madam gave us the examples of the worst case scenarios in an accident.
What should we do if the victim is injured badly, etc..
Thankfully she didn't show us any pictures, but just listening to her description gives me goosebumps. 

I started to think how I regretted joining First Aid. I could hardly stand it.
And it's just the beginning..
And the thought of, "if only"s kept crossing over my mind.
And I kept telling myself that I should have a greater will. A stronger will.
I should have just ....


But then, after having few thoughts of it over and over again,
I think I'll just go with the flow.
For this time, I'll try to take the road most travelled by, although it's not my kind of preferences.
This is also something new to me.
Trying something that's not according to my liking.
Who knows as I go on, I'll start to develop interest in it... (hopefully)..

Now, dear me, let's try to not regret what I, myself has chosen.
Something good will come up, insya-Allah.


P/S: aaaah, feels good to let things out like this. Alhamdulillah.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Another start of something new.


Look at this! Look at this!

Insya-Allah, I am officially a UTM undergraduate student. Alhamdulillah :D
The orientation week (known as MTM) has ended, alhamdulillah.
I got to stay in Kolej Perdana, alhamdulillah.
The wifi in Faculty of Education is good, alhamdulillah.
Alhamdulillah for everything.

Jakun locker dia besar dan banyak ruang.
I got a new roommate, Effa. She is from Kelantan and is very nice :)
Two of my girl friends from my foundation year are also studying TESL here; Teno and Sarah :)
Our rooms are in the 8th floor. Luckily there's two lifts but only one is functioning. Hopefully it will function soon.
The scenery we can see from our window is beautiful, subhanallah.
Our residential college is just beside a forest and is kind of higher than other buildings, so it is cold in the morning. I can even see the fogs. The air is so fresh, alhamdulillah. Hopefully the environment will be good for our study.

In Faculty of Education in UTM, TESL students of our batch consist of only 19 students, with 16 females and 3 males. All 16 females live in the same block and level, so I think it will be easy for us to do work together.
Hopefully, in this four years, we will be close. Very close.
Have I ever mentioned that this will be my first time studying with multi-racial and religion friends? Yeah, there are Malay, Chinese and Melanau girls. Jakun jom.

Our subjects/courses for undergraduate study is just about the same as in our foundation, only we will learn deeper in each subjects, as usual. For our first semester, we will take 9 courses. Oh, and as you can see above, our programme's name is Bachelor of Science with Education (TESL). The 'Science' is our minor and specifically, the Science field we're going to study is Multimedia. The credit hour for Multimedia-related subject is kinda big, so I think we really have to score that. We will also study Japanese (yeay!) as a third language. And in our 2nd sem of the 3rd year, we will have our practical. Gulp.

Hm. I am excited to start this new journey and am feeling very nervous in the same time.
Hopefully this journey will be a lot more better than before.
Hopefully I will always make my goal clear to strive in this journey.
Hopefully I will be strong to endure all challenges and hardship ahead. Aliya K = Aliya Kuat.
Hopefully, everything will turn out well.

Do pray for me. For the best.

My inspiration. Yes, myself. CEH. My parents laa. Abamama..
in front of Dewan Seri Perdana.
May Allah show His guidance throughout this new journey.
May Allah bless this new journey.

Most of my friends had registered to universities for their undergraduate programmes too. May Allah guide them and always lend them strength to strive in their life.
My friends are all over Malaysia and the world now. UTM, UM, UPM, UiTM, UNIMAS, USM, UniSZA, UIA, UMS, UKM, etc. Egypt, Jordan, Turkey, etc.
All the best, friends!

Last but not least,
I miss them so so so SO SO much!

Taught them from May to July. 
May Allah bless them.
Nasib baik kat Johor lagi.

That's all for now.

P/S: Semoga hati tetap suci, neutral dan terpelihara.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Aidilfitri 1433, 2012

Subhanallah, beautiful :)
My sister, Safiah downloaded this photo from somewhere.
I put this picture here,, just, because, it's beautiful. heheh.

Alhamdulillah, Allah s.w.t has given us the chance to celebrate eid. Yeay!
My mom allowed me to buy a few bunga api this year. I had a great time enjoying them with my sisters and niece and nephew. Yeay!
OK childish habis.

Alhamdulillah, most of our family members could gather in our home this raya. Ahmad and his wife, kak Nabilah were here for two weeks and a half, now they are back at Jordan. Suhaib, Uswah and Maimunah with their whole family, alhamdulillah were with us too during eid.
Hasanah and her family are in Egypt but alhamdulillah today's technology eases us to keep in touch with each other regardless of our distance.. *touched*

Let's proceed with the eid wish.

Taken on 1st Syawal 1433 @ Our home, JB
Not in photo: Ahmad & kak Nabilah (beraya kat Kedah), Hasanah Suhail Khayrat Sayyd (beraya kat Mesir)
on behalf of our family, I wish all of you;

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!
Kullu 'am wa antum bikhair.

Minal aidin wal faizin.

May Allah accept all our deeds during Ramadhan and forgive our sins.
and, may Allah include us in those who 'succeed' ;)


Thanks for reading.

Friday, August 17, 2012

Ramadhan this year

Salam :)

Alhamdulillah, Ramadhan this year, I got to spend the whole month in JB, with my family. Having the chance to taste Mama's cooking, breaking fast with my family, listening to Ramadhan tazkirah from Abah, is surely a bliss. *nangis terharu*

Ramadhan is leaving soon. I'm very grateful that Allah has given me another chance to experience Ramadhan this year. I think this year's Ramadhan is better than the previous year. Alhamdulillah. However, I still hope that I will be given the chance to experience Ramadhan again.

Tomorrow will be the last day for us to fast during Ramadhan this year. Therefore, let's do our best in fasting tomorrow. Make zikr a lot, make dua a lot, and try our best to be khusyu' in our prayers. May we end Ramadhan with the best deed, and may Allah bless us.

Dear all readers,
whether I know you or not, in which I think I know most of you,
from the bottom of my heart, I apologize for any wrongdoings I've done towards you. I'm sorry. and if you feel like I have mistakes that need to be corrected, please, tell me.
If you want me to meet/tell you personally to apologize, please do so.
Let's solve the things between us in this world, rather than solving it in the hereafter.
Let's forgive each other.
Let's end this Ramadhan with a clean heart.

May we celebrate eid with true happiness.


اللْهُمَّ إِنَّكَ عَفُوٌّ تُحِبُّ الْعَفْوَ فَاعْفُ عَنِّي

"Oh Allah! You are Forgiving and love forgiveness so forgive me." 

That's all.
Wassalam :)

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Look Into My Eyes


Here is a song I like from Outlandish. I first listened to this song in 2007 although it was released in 2005.
This song is made based on a poem by a Palestinian, describing Palestinians' lives.

Let's listen and ponder.

Here is the lyrics

Look Into My Eyes by Outlandish

Look into my eyes
Tell me what you see
You don't see a damn thing
'cause you can't relate to me
You're blinded by our differences
My life makes no sense to you
I'm the persecuted one
You're the red, white and blue

Each day you wake in tranquility
No fears to cross your eyes
Each day I wake in gratitude
Thanking God He let me rise
You worry about your education
And the bills you have to pay
I worry about my vulnerable life
And if I'll survive another day
Your biggest fear is getting a ticket
As you cruise your Cadillac
My fear is that the tank that has just left
Will turn around and come back

Do you know the truth of where your money goes?
Do you let your media deceive your mind?
Is this a truth nobody, nobody, nobody knows?
Someone tell me...

Ooohh, let's not cry tonight
I promise you one day it's through
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters
Ooohh, shine a light for every soul that ain't with us no more
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters

See I've known terror for quite some time
57 years so cruel
Terror breathes the air I breathe
It's the checkpoint on my way to school
Terror is the robbery of my land
And the torture of my mother
The imprisonment of my innocent father
The bullet in my baby brother
The bulldozers and the tanks
The gases and the guns
The bombs that fall outside my door
All due to your funds
You blame me for defending myself
Against the ways of my enemies
I'm terrorized in my own land
But am I the terrorist?

Do you know the truth of where your money goes?
Do you let your media deceive your mind?
Is this a truth nobody, nobody, nobody knows?
Someone tell me...

Ooohh, let's not cry tonight, I promise you one day it's through
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters,
Ooohh, shine a light for every soul that ain't with us no more
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters,

America, do you realize that the taxes that you pay
Feed the forces that traumatize my every living day
So if I won't be here tomorrow
It's written in my fate
May the future bring a brighter day
The end of our wait

Ooohh, let's not cry tonight, I promise you one day it's through
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters,
Ooohh, shine a light for every soul that ain't with us no more
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters.

Let us keep praying for our muslim brothers and sisters around the world. Every day, especially during this holy month.

May Allah bless us...


Sunday, July 22, 2012

It's Ramadhan Again!


Alhamdulillah, Allah has given us the chance to enjoy Ramadhan again. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah.

Narrated Abu Huraira: Allah’s Apostle said, “When the month of Ramadan starts, the gates of the heaven are opened and the gates of Hell are closed and the devils are chained.
[Sahih Bukhari]

Let us fill this Ramadhan with lots and lots of ibadah, at least by remembering Him all the time. May our deeds will be accepted by Him, and may Allah bless us!

more OSM Ramadhan Tips here on facebook.

Here's a prayer that we can recite throughout this holy month;

بارك اللهم لنا في شهر رمضان
-Baarikillahumma lanaa fii syahri Ramadhan-
"O Allah, bless us in the month of Ramadhan"

Happy Ramadhan!
Wassalam :)

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Of expectation towards people


Sometimes we forgot that people are humans and they can't be perfect. So, don't expect them to perfectly suit our expectation.

Dear everyone in this planet including me,
please accept people as they are.

Because we want others to accept us as we are too.

kalau tak, forever alone lah macam Danbo The Boxman ni. Takde orang nak kawan. Orang amik gambar candid je.

but, don't use this 'everybody makes mistakes' phrase as an excuse for ourselves to not be better.

Rasulullah (pbuh) said: "Every son of Adam sins, and the best of those who sin are those who repent."
- Narrated by Al-Tirmizi

Wassalam :)

Friday, June 29, 2012

Teguran yang innocent


*mod berblogging dalam bahasa ibunda*

Alhamdulillah. Banyak sangat pekara yang aku belajar ketika mengajar. Untung kot, sebab mengajar sekolah agama. Walaupun nakal dan tak matang, bila budak tu sebut kata-kata yang keagamaan sikit, nanti cepat je sejuk hati. Terharu dan bersyukur. Bersyukur sebab sekurang-kurangnya ilmu agama itu ada dalam diri mereka.

Meh aku cerita sikit pengalaman petang tadi.

Hari ini aku balik daripada sekolah agak lambat sebab aku kena menggantikan kelas yang gurunya ada urusan lain. Tadi aku jaga kelas tambahan untuk darjah 6. Masuk kelas, mestilah bajet garang kan. Lepas itu, suruhlah anak-anak murid buat kerja. Mula-mula tu, okaylah, semua dengar kata. Tapi, macam biasalah kan, lama-lama mesti ada yang borak juga. Dahlah tengah hujan lebat kat luar masa tu. Nyaman je.

Tak, ni bukan gambar ketika mengajar kat sekolah. Gambar ni diambil ketika sedang berangan mengajar di lecture hall di UiTM Lendu suatu ketika dahulu. credits to Izni Suhaimi.

Aku jalan-jalan pusing satu kelas tu. Suruh sekumpulan aulad buat kerja mereka. Lepas tu terdengar sekumpulan banat macam rancak berbual. Aku pergi kat mereka. Suruh buat kerja. Dua kelompok ni jelah yang kerja agak tergendala sebab berbual. Yang lain tekun je buat kerja alhamdulillah.

Sekali, one time, aku pergi kat kumpulan banat yang borak tadi. Tetiba salah seorang banat tu cakap, "Ustazah nak tau rahsia tak?"
Peh, tertariklah juga kan. "Apa?"

"Tu ha, aulad tu kan, dia suka *nama*."
Oh heh tu je ke rahsianya.. "Oh, ok. Awak suka siapa pulak?" Oops, terlayan.

Tetiba tersedar. Mereka patutnya buat kerja. "Hey, buat kerjalah!"

Pastu aku jalan-jalan lagi. Adalah beberapa murid panggil aku tanya pasal soalan yang mereka tak dapat jawab. Aku jalan dekat kumpulan aulad yang banyak borak. Mereka cakap pasal rahsia tu jugak. Dan aku suruh lagi mereka buat kerja. Suka benar cakap pasal minat meminati kaum tak sejenis ni. Hangpa nak periksa besar kot!

Kumpulan banat yang tadi tu panggil aku lagi.
"Ustazah nak tau tak, aulad yang tu pun suka *nama* jugak tau."
Ceh, aku ingat dia panggil sebab nak tanya soalan. Pastu aku macam, oh ok. Pastu suruh lah mereka buat kerja lagi.

Lepas tu ada seorang aulad panggil aku. Aulad ni memang kerap angkat tangan tanya soalan. Tapi kali ni soalan dia tak berkaitan dengan pelajaran. Dengan muka suci, senyum-senyum konon segan dan penuh innocent, dia bertanya,

"Ustazah, waktu diorang bagi tau pasal 'rahsia' tu dekat ustazah kan, kan waktu tu tengah guruh, kenapa ustazah tak cakap "auzubillahi minassyaitonirrajim" atau "astaghfirullahal-adzim"? Nanti ustazah kena sambar petir kang macam mana."

Serius terdiam. Lama aku fikir apa yang patut aku balas.
A'ah an. Terlayan gosip. Astaghfirullah..

Terima kasih aulad sebab bagi teguran padaku. Aku tak ingat nama dia. Ingat bin apa je. hoho.

Lepas tu terus aku suruh kumpulan banat tu buat kerja je dan nasihat la sikit, gosip tu tak membawa ke mana pun. Wuwu.

Semoga aulad yang menegur tu dapat jadi insan yang soleh dan musleh suatu hari nanti. Juga mereka-mereka yang terlibat samada secara langsung atau tak langsung dalam cerita ni.

Terima kasih Allah.


Aulad = anak lelaki
Banat = anak perempuan

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Monday's story. Teaching fiqh.



I am currently working at my former primary school, SRIHJB as guru ganti sementara (temporary replacement teacher ke?). I teach Bahasa Melayu, Fiqh and Sivik & Kajian Tempatan. Here is a story that has been stuck in my head for a while.


Year 2 class, teaching Fiqh.
Last week, I have taught them on how to perform daily prayers. The steps, the niat.
Therefore, this week, it's time to learn about one of the recitation in prayer that is Doa Iftitah (Opening prayer).
The class went well. The students listened to what I told them. They did some work in their activity book. Activities on the daily prayers and doa iftitah.

One student raised his hand. Asked me on how to do one question. It's on niat solat fardhu.
"You just have to fill in these blanks. Alright, try one here. Usolli fardha subhi...? what comes after that?"
He kept quite.
"Okay. Try this one, since you're going to perform Zohor prayer after this. Usolli fardha zuhri..?"
He kept quite again.
I helped him continue, "arba'a roka'aatin......"
Later I said, "It's okay. You can refer the niat in your textbook. Here."
Then he continued his work with his friends.

The time's up. It's time for them to get ready for Zohor prayer. After giving salaam and read some dua, the students went out of the class. But some boys didn't. I heard one of them said, "Ustazah, he's crying!"
I went closer to them and asked the friends around the crying one, "Why is he crying?"
It was the one who asked me the question earlier.
"We don't know, Ustazah," they said.
"Did someone make you cry?" I asked the boy. He shook his head.
"Is it me? Am I too 'garang'?" He shook immediately.
"Then why?" He still sobbed.
Then one of his friend said, "Maybe he's afraid to perform prayer."
That's an odd reason. but I asked him anyway, "Are you afraid to perform prayer?"
To my surprise, he nodded.
"Why?" I asked.
"He just transferred here, Ustazah. He's from overseas," said one of his friends.
Okeh, no wonder his face looked new, because he was (or is? since he's still new).
I recalled to the time he asked me the question before. No wonder he looked a bit blur. Maybe he is still learning to perform prayer.
I asked the boy, "Do you not know how to pray? Is that the reason?"
He nodded again, still sobbing.
"It's okay, *name*. You can learn to pray in the musolla. Just follow their movements and what they recite during performing prayer."
(Good thing that for Tahap 1 [Year 1-3], when they pray, they recite the prayer recitation out loud, from the niat, to salaam, and dua after prayer. Easier for them to remember and memorize)
I patted the boy's back. "Come on now. It's okay."
Then his friends said, "Let's pray. Don't worry. Just follow us."
and there they go.

lepas tu balik bilik guru, duduk sebentar. batuk-batuk. lepas tu suara terus serak sampai sekarang. an immediate change. unpredictable. (selingan :P)

Some school view at night.
academic building (secondary school) on the left, kompleks tahfiz building on the right.
The musolla (surau) is the one with bright windows on the ground floor. above it is female's musolla.  

A few thoughts came across my mind after that,

Just in standard 2. Approximately 8 years old. Cried for not knowing how to pray. Has supportive friends. Got to be in religious school, insya-Allah to strengthen his Islamic foundation. He is lucky. At least he started learning now. Not later.
May he grow up to be a mu'min soleh.

and to think about it,
hey, I think I'm actually luckier. Thanks Allah. Thanks abah and mama.
but I took the things I got for granted.
Only when I lose them that I tried to grab everything back. and that is right after I finished high school.

let us always be grateful. For having faith. For having lots of knowledge. For everything that we have.

I've learnt a lot from my experience as a temporary teacher, but I guess I'm gonna share just this for today.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

The Making of Tiramisu



A few weeks ago, my friend, Aimi Nadzirah invited me to her house since we were in a long holiday, just to fill one of our free days. Her house is just 1km away from mine, so I accepted the invitation. The original plan for the day was to bake moist chocolate cake, but then we went to the shop that sold baking materials and bought the ingredients to make Tiramisu cake, and so, we made Tiramisu. Aimi's cousin, Haziqah joined in too. In the end, the moist chocolate cake was made by Aimi alone and the Tiramisu was done by the three of us.

To make it was quite simple actually, we can even do that alone, but that time, we did it together because we have no mixer so we mix the mixtures manually by our own hands (we took turns to mix them).

We used the recipe that was provided on the Forno Bonomi Ladyfinger's packaging.

The recipe on the packaging


  1. 400g "Forno Bonomi" Ladyfingers
  2. 500g Mascarpone cheese
  3. 300ml Strong warm coffee
  4. 120g Sugar
  5. 4 Eggs (set apart egg yolks and egg whites)

  6. Bitter cocoa powder (for dusting)

The making of it:

  • Add sugar to egg yolks and beat them till pale and thick. Then, add mascarpone cheese and mix them until stiff. (sampai jadi macam cream-cream gitu)
  • On another bowl, add a pinch of salt to egg whites and beat them until soft peaks formed. (jadi macam foam nanti)
  • Kinda like this. Tapi ni belum jadi lagi. Nanti dia jadi lagi buih-buih-like.
  • Then, mix the foam and the mascarpone cream together gently.
  • Prepare warm coffee. Pour it in a shallow dish so that it's easier to dip the ladyfingers.
  • Dip the ladyfingers one by one into the coffee and arrange them in a serving dish. Cover them with a layer of the mixture of mascarpone cream.
  • Kinda like this. Huaha. Ignore how it looks. It tastes good.
  • On the mascarpone cream, again, arrange the ladyfingers and cover them with the cream again, and do those again and again till you are out of ladyfingers and mascarpone cream.
  • Dust the top with cocoa powder.
  • and finally, refrigerate for about 4 hours.
  • After 4 hours, you can enjoy it! :))


There you go. Quite easy isn't it?

I have tried making it again by myself at home, with some help from my sister, Safiah. and for the dusting, I used Milo since we don't have cocoa powder at home. but it still tastes good.

My second try of making Tiramisu. OKla.. My parents and siblings said it was good.
Safiah tak sempat rasa sebab dia pergi balik UIA awal.
Athirah dapat rasa sebab petang tu aku pergi lawat dia dekat hospital.
If you're wondering how to eat it, we actually slice them just like slicing a cake. The ladyfingers biscuits are actually soften after being dipped in the warm coffee. After being sliced, it'll look somewhat like this.

Alright, that's all for now.

P/S: Some pictures were taken by using Google Search Engine and some were just taken from my camera phone.

Sunday, May 13, 2012


Assalamualaikum :)

an Arabic quote.

"If you did not add (contribute) something to the world, then you are an excess of the world."

That is what the quote in the above picture means.
Allah has blessed each of His creations with specialities and potentials. Even you, who is reading this has a lot of it. One of it is that, you can see. Another is, you can read. Alhamdulillah.

Some people has been blessed with the potential to write beautifully, sing beautifully, draw beautifully, photograph beautifully, photoshop amazingly, think critically, do parkour, cook deliciously, etc.. Now let's look into ourselves. What kind of potential do we have?

If you look deeper and try a lot of things, insya-Allah you will find your potential.

I just found out my new potential two days ago and that is; 'drumming' using kompang. koh koh koh. I discovered it while I was gathering with a few of my seniors and friend from school. While they were singing, I was just trying beating the 'kompang' and suddenly one of my senior said that I have the skill. But of course I'll have to practise more to sharpen it laa.

Ehem. Therefore, when you try doing different activities, you will find out more of yourself that you don't know.

Then, after you have found out your specialities, potentials and skills, think of the ways to use them beneficially, so that maybe you yourself will get the benefits, or others living in this world will get the benefits.

E.g: You can plant trees. So, plant trees so that you and everyone around you will get more O2.

If we did not use the potentials we have, insya-Allah they will be wasted and therefore we will just be a waste that did not do anything in this world. Baik tak yah hidup kalau gitu. Astaghfirullah. Nauzubillah.

Allah s.w.t has stated in His Quran:
وَمَا خَلَقۡنَا ٱلسَّمَآءَ وَٱلۡأَرۡضَ وَمَا بَيۡنَہُمَا لَـٰعِبِينَ 
"We did not create the heavens and the earth and what lies between them for play"
[ Al - Anbiya', 21 : 16 ]

Allah did not create us for play. Bukan main-main. There must be a reason why Allah has created us, and even giving us our potentials.

Therefore, let us discover our potentials and make use of them! :))


Friday, May 11, 2012

Life and death


7th of May 2012, Monday. Fly-over atas highway Pasir Gudang.
Taken on my way to school, to pick up my sisters.
I had never thought that Allah would take my senior from this world in the next few hours.

Life is short.
We all know that. Everyone does too.
But do we really believe in it?
Do we realize it?

Sometimes, only when Allah gives us reminder that we will realize. Tough reminder.
Happens to me so many times.

وَمَا هَـٰذِهِ ٱلۡحَيَوٰةُ ٱلدُّنۡيَآ إِلَّا لَهۡوٌ۬ وَلَعِبٌ۬‌ۚ وَإِنَّ ٱلدَّارَ ٱلۡأَخِرَةَ لَهِىَ ٱلۡحَيَوَانُ‌ۚ لَوۡ ڪَانُواْ يَعۡلَمُونَ 

"Dan tiadalah kehidupan dunia ini melainkan senda gurau dan main-main. Dan sesungguhnya akhirat itulah yang sebenarnya kehidupan, kalau mereka mengetahui."

"This life of the world is but a pastime and a game. Lo! the home of the Hereafter - that is Life, if they but knew."
[ Al-Ankabut, 29 : 64 ]

Allah has given me reminders through the Al-Qur'an. But I guess I don't comprehend much of the aayaat that he took a few people from this world to make me reaaally realize.
Oh Allah, please don't take this realization away from me. And may this realization will also touch others' hearts too... Aamiin.

A song originally from LOST OST, entitled Life and Death. I like it.

Al-Fatihah to my senior, Almarhumah Nurul Hafizah Mohd Faizul Aris, who is also my sister (Safiah)'s close friend. She passed away last Monday. May Allah bless her. Allah loves her. And may Allah give strength to her whole family and friends to face this. [news from school's web]

May Allah bless us and guide us to the right path always. Aamiin..